It's A Girl!

We met with "our" birth mom, Courtney, on January 30th. I was a nervous wreck all week, never mind almost not being able to function on the actual day. This wasn't a "regular" meeting, this was a meeting that would potentially alter our lives as we knew it.

We went back and forth between..

"Oh gosh, what if she picks us" and "oh gosh, what if she doesn't pick us". We couldn't imagine our lives with either scenario.

We met with Courtney at the agency. It was awkward and uncomfortable and scary. She was intense with lots of questions for us, putting us on the hot seat. She watched us. Studied our moves and how we interacted. She even told the social worker after the meeting, that she liked the way we watched each other as we talked, that I seemed more reserved and less confident, that she liked that Mick was emotional and she could tell he wanted to be a dad. As there was some question as to the race of the baby, she was even concerned that we lacked African American friends!  We had no concerns about her family history, medical history or past. She seemed like the perfect fit for us, perfect on paper and the best case scenario. After 2 hours of questions and answers and getting a feel for each other, she told the social worker that she didn't need to think about it, we were the couple.

And just like that...my mind and heart were racing. There was very little emotion involved. No hugs, no tears...just pure shock. We exchanged emails and went on our way.

Oh my gosh. We were having a baby girl. I was over the moon. We couldn't believe and even talked about how the timing was perfect. My parents were coming into town from Manitoba that weekend for my grandpa's birthday and we couldn't wait to share our news. They were completely in the dark...we didn't even mention to them that we were matched or had a meeting with a potential birth mom. The saddest part for me about not have a traditional pregnancy was that there was a loss of "excitement" and a big announcement. Everything was so logical and paper-based. I wanted to share this news and not in an email or phone call. Only in-person would do!

Mick and I had to pick up our dog from his parents house. We knew that there was NO WAY we could see them and not share. So we called them and asked them to meet us for coffee at his brothers house. Then we called his brother to say we were bored and wanted to come for coffee. We knew that they figured something was up but I wasn't going to give in before we saw them in person. We made a quick stop to Babies R Us and bought 2 small pink frames that announced:

It's A Girl!

Our families were obviously excited and over the moon for us. My mom, I think, was in the most shock as she didn't understand the "announcement" when she opened up the frame. She had to be told what it meant by my brother's fiance even after reading aloud the frame and the note that said "due May 2013". she just looked and stared and repeating it! There were many tears and hugs and celebratory drinks. We couldn't believe that in 3 months, our lives would be completely different.

We couldn't wait.